On some days, I know you wish to wake up with lesser things to worry about: your job, your chores, your responsibilities, and etc. You wish your mind would go on vacation and just get the rest that it needs. You wish your body gets a break. Because for the most part, you are always running around to get what needs to be done. This could be the pile of laundry, the bunch of errands, the number of tasks — and the day’s just not enough to do all of these things.
On some nights, I know you wish you slept longer. Just a long and deep and peaceful sleep without worrying about tomorrow, or the deadlines, or how you’re going to make ends meet, or the bills to pay, or the endless list of responsibilities. I know you feel like sometimes the weight of the world is on your shoulders and you can’t even ask for help.
The truth is, being independent means you have to pay a hefty price — choosing to be your own pillar, deciding to provide everything for yourself, depending on yourself and fulfilling all the roles in one. Sometimes it’s impossible to have the strength to fulfill all these things. Sometimes you need a break. And it’s okay to admit that you’re tired and you need to slow things down.
Because no one said it was going to be easy. ‘Cause if it was, everyone would be doing it by now.
It’s a blessing and a gift to be able to count on yourself. It takes a lot of energy and resilience. It needs a fighting mentality and a fighting spirit to get through each day and fight through the battles that come along with taking care of yourself.
No one said it was going to be easy. But this pain is the kind of pain that comes with independence, the kind of pain you’re willing to endure than the pain that comes with codependency.
I know you’re tired. You have every right to be. But, hang in there! Keep it up ‘cause it’s your saving grace. This is what sets you apart. This is what makes you beautiful and self-sufficient.
But for now, push the brakes a little. Get some good rest. And when you’re ready, start up that engine.
It’s the world who needs to be ready for someone like you.